i didn’t cry (til i was healed)

i didn’t cry (til i was healed)
– david elias, 6/12/2016 8:06pm HST

so i left the bankrupt controversy
i left the country citified
i left rhetoric your name
what’s your name

so i traveled hard
and hardly traveled
i beat the climate war
i landed outside
just outside

i kept your feelings
close at hand
but heart was heart
a vagabond
forever seeking heart
not by example
seeking heart
not by therapeutic samples
seeking heart
not by diagrams or charts
pointing the way
seeking heart
by seeking heart
from the outside
into nature

and i didn’t cry
til i was healed